We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed. 2 Cor. 4: 8-9 (NIV)
I don't know what to say....I really thought things would not betÂ getting anymore difficultÂ than they already are. I was wrong.
My sister is going to be heading home to California tomorrow to have some biopsies done to figure out what's going on.Â I feel so bad for her.Â She's tried to hard to eat right and live a healthy lifestyle, yet has had to undergo 2 major surgeries this year, and now this.Â My last phone conversation with her this evening we were both encouraging eachother to not worry about this, but to trust God because we can't change anything by worrying about what might be or what might not be.
I was totally losing it earlier, and still feel like I'm on the edge, but I'm also feeling a sense of peace again.Â I just know that if I get any sleep tonight, it will a gift directly from God.
My Polyanna moment (man I need t play the glad game tonight) for tonight is that I am soooo glad that she was able to come and have such a great visit with us today.Â Esther was wide awake, talking to her Auntie Lisa and smiling.Â Here's one of the photos I took today - you can see that Esther is really telling her Auntie Lisa all about something, and it must be something she really liked:
We had many visitors over the last couple of days, and I've got lots of photos to share, but I'm going to wait until Esther's out of surgery and I'm spending time in ICU with her (can't use cell phones, but I can be online with my laptop in there!).Â So I'll catch you up then, as well as post updates as often as necessary as Esther recovers.